.: HURT is all that i'm feeling right now :.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

sigh * ;
sorry to hurt you with those words .
i didnt mean to say it . i'm sorry .
maybe what you say might be true .
i have lost the trust and faith in you .
I'm so fucking jealous , when you told me that thing .
i just cant accept the fact .
she's the one who suggest to you .
i dont know if it is your true will .
hope everything will be fine . real fine ;
i love you and i really do .

felt that the same old thing is coming back .
i hate it ! i dont want it to happen anymore ; no more !
if only boys understand how girls feel .
why are boys so naive , innocent ?
I hate your stupidity .
when will you ever understand how i really feel ?
maybe patching isnt the right thing
maybe we are just not meant to be
did you ever love me with all your heart ?
if you dont , find a better girl which you love her deeply .
and let's just be god-sibilings .
i play with my boy-friends , you play with your girl-friends .
isnt that better ? neither of us can control each other then .
and neither of us will feel jealous .

hmms , if you really mean what you say .
how are you gonna prove it to me ?
its still a doubt ` and you dont even know how to prove it to me .
how am i gonna trust you to the fullest ?
your not that guy , i used to know .
you had change completely .
i want the old yuanlin , or will i get used to this new yuanlin ?
i dont know ;
everything seems so complicated .
how will i ever get to know the truth ?
I know everything , inside out ;
just that i didnt want to say a single thing to ruin our relationship .
but how long can it last ?
you seem so cold to me .
sorry and sorry once again to hurt you with my words .
hope you will forgive me ?
i'm real sorry and guilty .
you didnt even feel like smsing me .
blurt out all the unsaid words .
just walk out of my life , if i wasnt the one you really love .
toy me and you will get the consequences .
i will hate you for that !

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thiis is what u blog barhs. hmms. i dunnoe narhs. but i swear i have nvr tot of toying of u n i nvr will. i promise u i will change for u. i promise u i will prove to u that i really really really love u. u did nothing u dun niid to ask me for any forgiveness. hmms. i got nthing to sae le. all i wan to sae is i really really love u thats all.

Gotta let you go at x 11:26 PM ___+

hmms. u lost trust in me le barhs. i think so. hmms. i dunnoe narhs. i really love u narhs. maybe u lost faith in me already thats why u told me those words jus nw. hmms.. i dunnoe what i really did. i really wanna wait for u. its like i have waited for u 2 months before. 3 weeks is nothing to me. hmms... i dunnoe what mood i am having nw. i feel betrayed n angry n sad at the same tiime. maybe i did somethiing wrong but i dunnoe what the hell i did wrong. sorry i really love u. EVELYN TAN wo aii nii. hmms.. i will be changing the past of the blog so i dun thiink u can see it. =x hmms i really love u. how how? someone tell me what to do because i dunnoe what i really did wrong larhs. hmms.. i think she's thiinking that i am toying with her but i am not. hmms. i dunnoe narhs. hmms. thiinking bout thiis i really feel like crying. but haiish.

Gotta let you go at x 12:01 AM ___+

Saturday, September 09, 2006

hmms... todae er... had a fun day with my laopo?? yeap yeap. wakakas. hmms. my laopo got a fun day wiib me marhs? i dunnoe narhs.... hmmmsssss.... i am very very jealous!!!! how how? some1 tell me.

Gotta let you go at x 12:42 AM ___+

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

hmms.... its bout 5am nw... i jus patched wiith evelyn a few hours back. wakakas. i promiise u, i'll love you now n forever! i promiise! hmms... thiinkiing how u r feeliing nw... hope u r happy barhs... wakakas. i am overjoyed when u accepted me agaiin wakakas... from jus nw till nw i tried to slp but i couldn't! wakakas. evelyn tan sher meii. how could u? tell me so early n made me not able to slp... hahas. but nvm! wo aii nii... wakakas... ohya, siians. tmr u got sch. nobodys gonna peii me... nvm nvm... i shall slp tmr then whole day... wakakas... siians nw only 5.02am n i am goiing out at 10++ siians siians... i shall wake up early n sms me baobeii laopo! wakakas. hmms... will i have a niice day tmr??? i thiink so barhs... i wiill be gettiing the miickey striip for my baobeii laopo tmr! hahas... her bd is round the corner le wor... wakakas... siians... how am ii suppose to peii her when ii am goiing to meet her agaiin. n i dunnoe when i am goiing to meet her agaiin. hahas. hmms... me nw damn fcukiing worriied bout laopo's eyes siias... swollen lehs... how how??? okiiie narhs... gtg le... dunnoe what else to type le... pple out there.... dun miish me too much! wakakas. LAOPO, WO AI NI... MUACKS

Gotta let you go at x 4:56 AM ___+

hmms... siians... thiis iis one of the most siians day i had... wakakas.... whole day slpiing... hahas... haiish i thiink i am miissiing u agaiin. hmms. what can ii do? i deciided to leave u n now ii wan u back... i thiink maybe its unfaiir for u. i left u once n nw i wan u back.... hmms... i dunnoe narhs... hmms... ohya... hmms... i will be getting a ans from u today! wakakas. i hope the ans is a yes! because i really love u nw... i regretted not treasuring u last tiime. if u giv me a chance nw i wiill treasure u. hmms... i have been thiink bout somethiings todae... ohya, todae i went to my korgor house... wakakas. the baby so cute! hahas... but too bad. she slpiing didn't get the chance to play wiib her... hahas... hmms... todae is a super super boriing day for me... ohya, gd news for evelyn soh n xiia meng wakakas. i smoke bout half a stiick todae only! wakakas.... is iit a gd news or a bad 1? haiish... i have been thiinkiing whether should i jus close my eyes n nvr wake up agaiin... hmm... i dunnoe niiaos... everyone! tag for me!!!!!!!!! k narhs... gtg le... bye bye... Wo Aii Evelyn Tan sher meii! wakakas... everyone! dun miiss me too much...

Gotta let you go at x 12:30 AM ___+

Monday, September 04, 2006

I LOVE EVELYN TAN SHER MEI ! (x

Gotta let you go at x 3:05 AM ___+